Wednesday, May 15, 2013

A Conversation with MOM

My dad, me, and mom Junior year Prom

*This is a long Post*
I'm doing this a little backwards today because something AMAZING happened last night. Many of you already know, my mom did pass away in January after a long hard battle with Pancreatic Cancer. Since then a lot has happend. The main thing that happened was unnecessary family drama that divided my "close" family apart. Since my moms death I have been searching for signs. Anything really, but most of all I have been asking her for guidance, asking her if my Dad and I are doing the right thing. Although I know some people do not believe my experience with Maureen Hancock last night, made me a 100% believer with mediums. I went back in March, but my mom didn't come through. Last night my Dad and I went together. It was the most surreal experience ever. Here is what happened. 
We were getting close to the end (there were around 100 people at the event) and Maureen was speaking to the last spirit. I was upset because once again i heard nothing from my mom. Then all of a sudden, Maureen pointed at my dad and I and said "You Mom/wife has passed?" "I want to speak to you guys in the back at the end". INSANE right?! I started crying and felt this rush of emotion rush through my body. At the end everyone cleared out of the room and my dad headed to the back to meet with Maureen privately. 
*This is where there is going to be a lot of she said this and i said this type of thing*
Maureen said to my dad and I: "Your wife, your mom, wanted to come through the whole time, that is why I was looking at you and making jokes. She was standing right next to you guys the entire time."
To both of us: "Oh i really like her, she is so strong!" "haha she just said back to me 'I like you too'" 
To my dad: "She wants to let you know that you did everything you could for her."
To both of us: "She also wants to let you both know that she is whole again. She suffered from an illness?" "Well just know she is no longer sick"
To me: "And your grandmother has passed?" (both of my grandmothers are alive)
To both of us: "Has her grandmother passed, what does the M  stand for"
The M was for my mom paternal grandmother her Nonnie Materia. That was her inspiration. My mom was just like her, strong. 
To both my dad and I: "Please know that she is holding on to your moms arm, she is right next to her"
To me: "You have other siblings...2 more...2 girls and a boy...please know your mom is recognizing them"
To my Dad: "Your father is here...he wants you to know he is very proud of you. *Grabs her chest* He passed away suddenly from a heart attack" ( My Papa Dom passed away July 2009 suddenly from a heart attack)
To both of us: "Oh your mom just pushed him out of the way" *Grabs my hands*
To me: "You cannot make everyone happy, and you cannot do everything for everyone. You will never please everyone"
To both of us: Your mom/wife is so proud of you guys, she said as for the family stuff forget it. You are her family you are the ones who matter the most to her. 
To me: "Keep talking to your mom she hears you all the time, she also says to not always watch the news when bad things happen, stop over thinking things"
I was about to ask Maureen if my mom knew i finished my semester at school, and she put her hand up and said. 
"Stop your mom just looked at me and gave me a huge thumbs up. She is so proud of you, she knows you did that for her"
I then asked maureen if my mom knew about the celebration of life and my mom said
"Did she not just sit through 2 1/2 hours listening to you, of course i know, I am so proud"
Maureen to me: She is showing me balloons or lanterns.
I was planning on doing a fundraiser on her birthday and setting off Chinese lanterns!
Maureen to me: Your mom said she things thats a really neat idea. 

I'm sorry this is so out of place but I wanted to share with people who saw my Facebook post, and also write it down so I myself will remember in years to come. 

"There is no death, only a change of worlds." - Chief Seattle

Monday, May 6, 2013

Wedding Day...




Video of some wedding pictures to the song my mom and Nathan danced to.

  With the right medication, mom was feeling better. We began packing for Nate and Amanda's wedding. On Thursday October 11, 2013 we headed to Logan airport to board a plane for Pittsburgh, PA. I can honestly say, I was a little nervous for my mom to fly, I didn't think she would have the energy to walk all the way around the airport. I was obviously proven wrong. Not only did she walk around the airport taking little to no stops, she pulled her luggage as well! We made it to Pittsburgh, and met up with Nate and Amanda. Friday October 12, 2013 was the rehearsal dinner. Everything came together beautifully. Mom made it through the rehearsal dinner as well. She was doing great. You could see the happiness on her face! We also got amazing news that made my mom even more proud of Nathan. HE PASSED HIS BAR EXAM! She was so proud of her son. He worked so hard. Saturday October 13, 2012  WEDDING DAY. Jenna and I headed to Amanda's house to get ready with the Bridal party. Mom rested for most of the day so she would make it through the wedding and the reception after. My cousins helped her get ready and blow dry her hair. When we arrived at the church, I remember stepping out of the limo and seeing my mom. I had tears in my eyes. She looked beautiful! She didn't even look sick! The wedding was beautiful. Amanda looked amazing, the church was gorgeous, and the day was wonderful. At the reception we watched as Amanda and her Dad took to the dance floor for the father daughter dance. Then it was my mom and Nathan's turn. My mom was not into all the attention being on them, but she did it. I do not think there was a dry eye in the place. She looked so happy, and it was such an accomplishment for her to even have the strength to get up there and dance. I will never forget that moment. The joy in my moms eyes as she danced with her son, to one of her many favorite songs. The weekend flew by, and it was time for us to get home. Mom had an appointment with her doctor when we returned home, that would decide on the surgery, but before we got home my mom and I talked about her goals. I remember her saying "I did it, I made it to the wedding!". She most certainly did. Her next goal was to make it to Halloween, but an even bigger goal of hers was to be here for the birth of my cousins first child, and christmas. We were all looking forward to the future because things seemed to be going well for her.

“Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.” -Gandhi